The ringing of the alarm slowed
penetrated my sleep-heavy mind. Despite the early hour I quickly
climbed out of bed because I knew this was not a morning on which I
had the luxury of pressing the snooze button, even at 3 AM. To make
the flight on time, we didn't have the luxury of extra moments of
sleep.
Usually I am the one getting ready to
catch a flight. But today I would be staying home and my daughter
would be the one taking wing. My job was simply to get her out of bed
in time to travel with her aunt and uncle to the airport. This would
be her first big trip apart from her mother and I. Was she ready?
Perhaps more importantly, were we ready? Sure she had been off to
summer camp a couple of times, but this time she would be traveling
some legs of her journey completely on her own, navigating new
airports, having to catch flights on time and connect with family
friends at her destination who had graciously agreed to pick her up
and deliver her to her aunt and uncle again (a complicated story,
involving different flights and an international border.) She's quite
experienced at international travel, but she's never really had to
travel on her own. I admit to being a bit nervous. I'm pretty sure
her mother was as well.
Despite our nervousness, I can safely
say that both her mother and I are also delighted. We are delighted
because we see our daughter growing more and more independent. The
past couple years have been really rough ones for her for reasons
that I shall not go into here. Last year she had to negotiate the
adjustment to American culture (having lived most of her life outside
of the country) at the same time as she had to learn the ways of
American high school life. It took her some time, but she has thrived
and flourished. Last summer we would have hesitated strongly about
sending her off on her own, even if it were to visit family, because
she was not at a place to undertake such a journey. This year she is.
And for that we are very glad.
She'll turn sixteen this summer. She
just got her driver's permit a couple weeks ago. (Unlike most teens,
she has no eagerness to begin driving.) Sometimes I wonder how she
reached this point. How did we reach this point? Surely I can't be
old enough to have a 16-year-old daughter? Can we really be looking
at her graduation from high school in two short years?
They tell you when you're a young
parent that those childhood years pass quickly. You nod politely and
acknowledge the truth of this statement, while not really
comprehending it. Some days when they're young you wonder if they
will ever grow up fast enough. Even when they hit their teens you
sometimes wonder if they will ever grow up. But time rolls
persistently onward and one day you find yourself with a 16-year-old
who is heading out the door to travel without you. And the thought
leaves you glad and sad at the same time. Being a parent is full of
many such bittersweet moments.
Wayne Watson sang a song years ago
entitle Watercolor Ponies that comes to mind at moments like these.
Referring to the drawings made by children that decorate the walls or
refrigerator doors of every parent, the chorus goes:
Baby what will we do, when it comes
back to me and you?
They look a little less like like boys
[girls] every day.
Oh the pleasure of watching the
children growing
Is mixed with the bitter cup
Of knowing the watercolor ponies
Will one day ride away.
Travel well my beloved daughter. Enjoy
yourself and know that you will be missed and loved every moment you
are gone.
[Out of respect for my daughter's
privacy I do not add any pictures of her to accompany today's post.]
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